Update Time..

So it seems I haven't written in a long time. This is what I have been up to:

• Softball:
• coached 2 teams -
• this is difficult, not only because it's time consuming, but because i am coaching friends.. and friends who have lots of opinions.
• I played for two month on another team (so 3 teams total)
• went to the play offs with one team and ended up in the second round
• Traveling:
• April - Italy (Sitr trip)
• May - Ocean City with my life group girls
• July - Florida (family vacation)
• August - upstate NY for my grandparents 50th anniversary and a trip down to Ashland, VA to see people I grew up with.
• Sept - I am going to LA this week for the God Chicks conference.
• Church:
• May- we had our amazing women's conference
• August - I helped organize our leadership conference
• September - This month is always our busiest month with something every weekend it seems... but what I am not looking forward to is What 2 Wear (our fashion show)
• Football:
• IT'S FOOTBALL SEASON!!!
• MY FAVORITE SEASON!!!!
• I am playing fantasy football this year and am loving it so far. (especially with 2 wins)
• Did I mention... football is my favorite season!?
• Other:
• I am contemplating taking classes that would increase my tech knowledge. I have been doing so much with our media team that it makes me want to be more knowledgeable...not quite sure any specifics on this though.
• I am trying to free up my schedule. I feel like I have been so stressed and busy, that I havent had time to really enjoy life. We will see how this goes. :)
• Spiritually - I feel like I am going into a learning season. I am open though and what God to do whatever he wants. I want to come out of it with a better relationship with Him.

I think that's it.. am I missing anything??? hmmm

Today as I was talking with Dennis, my 62 year old friend that I have coffee with at Cosi most mornings... I was reminded of one time when I fell off the curb.....

One day after school my senior year of HS, I had stopped by Immanuels Church for something. (to fill you in: in HS, I co-led the Bible study at school and the girl I co-led with went to Immanuels. One of the youth leaders there worked closely with us, so we would meet with him and discuss next steps etc.) Ok back to the story... So I am heading to my car jumping for joy after this meeting getting excited about all the end of the school year activities that are about to take place. (The next day I was going to a senior retreat with the 48 or so students that were in the same leadership program as me, softball was still going on, prom, graduation etc). In my excitement, I jumped off the curb, like I normally do, but this time I fell. yes, yes, I fell off a curb that was less than a foot off the ground. Well not only did I fall, but I sprained my ankle. My ankle turned black and blue and purple (all colors of the rainbow I think actually). The most embarrasing part was telling people that I sprained my ankle by jumping off a curb.. who does that?

I think this prefectly depicts my recent walk with God. With in the past month or so, I have felt like I have fallen off the curb and have been bruised or in pain, all because I wasn't paying attention. The "curb" didnt look dangerous, but I wasnt looking where I was stepping. In talking with Dennis this morning, I got this whole revelation: my "ankle" will heal, I just need to keep going. When I did fall off the curb and sprained my ankle, it took a bit of time for the swelling and bruising to go down. And though I was able to play softball the next week and still went on the retreat, my ankle was still sore quite a bit. It took time for the pain to subside too. I think that's what happens spiritually speaking too. Then when I fall or make the wrong decision...God is still there guiding me back to the right path. God will heal the pain/bruised areas if we ask him to...but we have to give Him as much time as He needs/wants. When spraining your ankle, though miracles do happen instantaniously, more often then not, it takes time to fully heal. I believe that is what God is doing with me...it's gonna take time, but ultimately I know that I will walk strong and better than before...and know that I need to pay attention when I come to that type of "curb" again.

Does that make sense? What are you thoughts?

Last night Jordan shared a scripture with me that I thought was really good. It definitely speaks to where I am at right now. This is definitely my prayer. Here it is in several versions.

Psalm 143:8 -

NIV- Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

NLT- Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to you.

AMPL- Cause me to hear Your loving-kindness in the morning, for on You do I lean and in You do I trust. Cause me to know the way wherein I should walk, for I lift up my inner self to You.

MSG- If you wake me each morning with the sound of your loving voice, I'll go to sleep each night trusting in you. Point out the road I must travel; I'm all ears, all eyes before you.